a small whine

it's been so many days since i last blogged! ah well. there has just been so many things going on T.T and this won't end until the end of this school year, malheureusement [sadly]. I actually have so many things to tell everybody; but i don't have the time now. Just thought i'd drop by to say hi to my poor little abandoned blog. I miss you! And everybody's comments! I promise i'll blog soon! I learned so many things over the past few days though: things like, I'm a nice girl at sight but an angry person at heart, that i love to dance and am not afraid to show that especially if given techno music (Infinity 2008's gotta be the one everybody loves), that i'm a person who's seeking new love, that my grades are falling because the IB program is playing its fatal trick on me, that i'm rather competitive (once again only at heart) when it comes to sports (and maybe academics but that's not a surprise)...and so many other things.

sigh;
life is hard,. and jealousy is just a pain.
love is and will always be non-existent,
and what more, fun is forever out of reach.

an update of my rundowned week.

hello hello! ah the happiness.
haha okay before you think this is going to be another one of my emo-aggro posts (seeing as the last few posts were all of this kind) it's going to be the opposite this time! :) I feel much better now. It's Friday thank god for that. Yeah i don't think i need to emphasize again that this week was just so stressful. But hey, i got into the Varsity Badminton Team! How's that! haha nah, i got in only because there were so little girls to choose from. Anyway! I My birthday was last Monday! I have some pics to show all of ya! Then I'll add on some Spirit Week photos as well. I guess overall Spirit Week was great fun. It got better and i guess more 'spirited' as the week progressed. I'll tell you why this week was just such a hectic week! I was busy organizing:

1. Spirit week activities at lunch
2. Valentine day grams
3. IB tests + projects + hw overload (were all due this week since our edline quarter 3 reports were due this morning..so all my teachers dumped a shitload of work on us students. cruel.)
4. Varsity Badminton tryouts happen to be on this week as well. (I went on Monday, 3-5pm, Wednesday 4-6pm, and Thursday 3-5pm.)

ah. this week was just a combination of fun, anger, emo-ism, pms-es, and love! ^^
aren't we all glad it's over and we have a wonderful weekend to look forward to :)

oh and before i proceed to zee photos, sorry for anyone who i shouted at, i glared at, i didn't smile or say hi to, who i totally treated as rubbish-bins (haha Junichi, Jonathan, Scott and Zennie during TOK. i totally brokedown that class when i spilled the many to-do lists that i had to complete.). Oh and to add on to this list, i'm sorry that i wrote a post about how i hated my [use-to-be] favorite teacher Mr. Fourmond, that i kept smashing my dear bff Zennie's phone on the table when i couldn't get a taxi, that i was so busy i wasn't able to hang out with my aunties MZ and Chee AND my other sweeties during lunch, OH and finally, that i said "YOU GUYS ARE PATHETIC" to the entire HS student body during the first day of spirit week when nobody volunteered to join the lunch-time activity.

AND FINALLY, THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WERE CONCERNED OF ME AND WHO COPED WITH MY PMS-ES THIS WEEK :D [namely Mr. Munro, bff Zennie, aunties MZ and Chee, sis Liyana, my table of friends at lunch, the Koreans + Shamir + Johnathan.] I love everybody ^^




the street @ the curve.




birthday dinner at TGIF.




gift from aunty CHEE :) [she calls me kanachu don't ask me why.]


the TGIF crew did a very embarrassing birthday ritual for me. watch video at the end of the post!






MZ you're missing in the photo! :(


korean 1: scottie


korean 2: jo jo


korean 3: ho sang


+ Shamir


+ Jonathan


Iris <3


Kristi <3


Diddo [Liyana] <3


and ma bff Zennie couldn't make it :( I NO FORGIVE U.


SPIRIT WEEK:


[twin day] thank aunty 02 for making those shirts!


peace and love


and this is my table of friends. they are all so sweet <3

they are inseperable!






triplets!




my former algebra II teacher. Mr Harkness on wacky day.


and here's the TGIF birthday ritual:
they made me stand on the chair in front of everyone.
they made me sing to my table of friends.
they made me hold a bottle of tomato ketchup that they dubbed as the 'spiritual candle'.
they made me blow the candle 1 meter away from where i was standing.








toooooooooooooooodles!

i must release this. forgive me for my being moody and mean.

Remember how i said last week was just a horrible, horrible week? Well this week's worse. Then again it's not even the end of the week yet. But yes, you can see how horrible, HORRIBLE this week REALY is. Is it even possible to have something worse than horrible? Yes. To Mr. Fourmond: if you can't fucking appreciate the map that I took home to do by MYSELF, then fuck off. I have a life, i have to cope with IB, i have so many things to worry about that map is the max i can do. You're not even being fair. I can't dedicate ALL MY TIME to this map. I took it home and worked on it for a whole night, and this was the best i could do. If you can't appreciate that, wait, it's not even hypothetical. YOU DON'T APRIECIATE IT AND INSTEAD YOU ASK ME TO RE-DO IT AGAIN. Are u fucking crazy? And i thought you were a reasonable teacher. Yeah..right. I hate you. I hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you. I hate your class i hate you i hate your attitude i hate it when you pms AND I DETEST YOUR SMELL.


So that was what happened today. this week is supposed to be spirit week but hell there is no spirit at our school. I take so much time organizing events for the student body, but i find myself standing up there being stared at blankly when i ask "how's everyone doing today!"
wtf is wrong with you people. you're the ones who complain that "ohh student council sucks they don't do anything." well look who's talking.




i am so sick of everything. of work, of life, of you, of myself, of the whole world.
stay way from me or i will bite you.

in depression.

i wake up this morning and suddenly i feel so exhausted.
i'm so tired of school, i'm so tired of love [in general]; i'm so tired of my life. i'm tired of having to wake up in the mornings, i'm tired of organizing this and that event in school, and needless to say, i'm tired of working/studying/doing homework over the weekend. my birthday is coming up in just two days, but i don't feel the spirit. which is unusual because i'm the type who likes parties, especially on my birthday. i can't concentrate in class, and i'm distracted more than i usually am. the sad thing is, i don't know why this is.

sins.

this week was a horrible week. it was just horrible. well it was more a combination of extreme happiness and extreme depression. anyway. this is my own business. there's nothing that i can or want to share.

okay. just for the fun of it. i stole this from Sai on facebook:

Seven Deadly Sins Survey

◄Wrath►

Who did you last get angry with?
isn't this question supposed to ask who i last got angry AT?..
myself.

What is your weapon of choice?
manipulation.

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
yes. but not my bf.

How about the same sex?
all the time. hahahahha.

Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
uhh i don't want to think about it.

What is your pet peeve?
condescending people.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
i don't keep grudges, but i take a while to let them go.

◄Sloth►

What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
reading for my World Lit paper.

What is the latest you've ever woken up?
2pm

Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
my cousin in Singapore

What is the last lame excuse that you made?
i need to go to the bathroom. (to avoid someone)

How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
five times as usual.

◄Gluttony►

What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
don't have one

Are you a meat eater?
YES. Chee says i'm carnivorous.

Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits
kind of.

Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
when it's needed, yes

Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
salty. soup.

Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
NO WAY.

◄Greed►

How many credit cards do you own?
i wish i had one

If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
go the the States, get a pent house for my future bf and i.

Would you rather be rich or famous?
rich.

Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
no.

◄Lust►
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
censored

What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
height is number one.

Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons at once?
of course not.


◄Envy►

What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
hot body.

Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
what does this mean

If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
Maggie Q

Have you ever been cheated on?
no.

Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
duh

What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
having perfect pitch

◄What deadly sin...►

Do you do the most often?
envy/pride

Do you do the least often?
..

Is your favorite to act on?
greed



:)

Alcohol take two.

"Alochol:
Reminds me of Amsterdam.
The night of the dance,
The dizziness and the music.
Your mind and body -
the 4 cups of beer.

Alcohol is bitter;

Alcohol. yeah, i understand now."

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lol I dug this up from one of my old diaries that was collecting dust in the corner of my room.