a small whine

it's been so many days since i last blogged! ah well. there has just been so many things going on T.T and this won't end until the end of this school year, malheureusement [sadly]. I actually have so many things to tell everybody; but i don't have the time now. Just thought i'd drop by to say hi to my poor little abandoned blog. I miss you! And everybody's comments! I promise i'll blog soon! I learned so many things over the past few days though: things like, I'm a nice girl at sight but an angry person at heart, that i love to dance and am not afraid to show that especially if given techno music (Infinity 2008's gotta be the one everybody loves), that i'm a person who's seeking new love, that my grades are falling because the IB program is playing its fatal trick on me, that i'm rather competitive (once again only at heart) when it comes to sports (and maybe academics but that's not a surprise)...and so many other things.

sigh;
life is hard,. and jealousy is just a pain.
love is and will always be non-existent,
and what more, fun is forever out of reach.

an update of my rundowned week.

hello hello! ah the happiness.
haha okay before you think this is going to be another one of my emo-aggro posts (seeing as the last few posts were all of this kind) it's going to be the opposite this time! :) I feel much better now. It's Friday thank god for that. Yeah i don't think i need to emphasize again that this week was just so stressful. But hey, i got into the Varsity Badminton Team! How's that! haha nah, i got in only because there were so little girls to choose from. Anyway! I My birthday was last Monday! I have some pics to show all of ya! Then I'll add on some Spirit Week photos as well. I guess overall Spirit Week was great fun. It got better and i guess more 'spirited' as the week progressed. I'll tell you why this week was just such a hectic week! I was busy organizing:

1. Spirit week activities at lunch
2. Valentine day grams
3. IB tests + projects + hw overload (were all due this week since our edline quarter 3 reports were due this morning..so all my teachers dumped a shitload of work on us students. cruel.)
4. Varsity Badminton tryouts happen to be on this week as well. (I went on Monday, 3-5pm, Wednesday 4-6pm, and Thursday 3-5pm.)

ah. this week was just a combination of fun, anger, emo-ism, pms-es, and love! ^^
aren't we all glad it's over and we have a wonderful weekend to look forward to :)

oh and before i proceed to zee photos, sorry for anyone who i shouted at, i glared at, i didn't smile or say hi to, who i totally treated as rubbish-bins (haha Junichi, Jonathan, Scott and Zennie during TOK. i totally brokedown that class when i spilled the many to-do lists that i had to complete.). Oh and to add on to this list, i'm sorry that i wrote a post about how i hated my [use-to-be] favorite teacher Mr. Fourmond, that i kept smashing my dear bff Zennie's phone on the table when i couldn't get a taxi, that i was so busy i wasn't able to hang out with my aunties MZ and Chee AND my other sweeties during lunch, OH and finally, that i said "YOU GUYS ARE PATHETIC" to the entire HS student body during the first day of spirit week when nobody volunteered to join the lunch-time activity.

AND FINALLY, THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WERE CONCERNED OF ME AND WHO COPED WITH MY PMS-ES THIS WEEK :D [namely Mr. Munro, bff Zennie, aunties MZ and Chee, sis Liyana, my table of friends at lunch, the Koreans + Shamir + Johnathan.] I love everybody ^^




the street @ the curve.




birthday dinner at TGIF.




gift from aunty CHEE :) [she calls me kanachu don't ask me why.]


the TGIF crew did a very embarrassing birthday ritual for me. watch video at the end of the post!






MZ you're missing in the photo! :(


korean 1: scottie


korean 2: jo jo


korean 3: ho sang


+ Shamir


+ Jonathan


Iris <3


Kristi <3


Diddo [Liyana] <3


and ma bff Zennie couldn't make it :( I NO FORGIVE U.


SPIRIT WEEK:


[twin day] thank aunty 02 for making those shirts!


peace and love


and this is my table of friends. they are all so sweet <3

they are inseperable!






triplets!




my former algebra II teacher. Mr Harkness on wacky day.


and here's the TGIF birthday ritual:
they made me stand on the chair in front of everyone.
they made me sing to my table of friends.
they made me hold a bottle of tomato ketchup that they dubbed as the 'spiritual candle'.
they made me blow the candle 1 meter away from where i was standing.








toooooooooooooooodles!

i must release this. forgive me for my being moody and mean.

Remember how i said last week was just a horrible, horrible week? Well this week's worse. Then again it's not even the end of the week yet. But yes, you can see how horrible, HORRIBLE this week REALY is. Is it even possible to have something worse than horrible? Yes. To Mr. Fourmond: if you can't fucking appreciate the map that I took home to do by MYSELF, then fuck off. I have a life, i have to cope with IB, i have so many things to worry about that map is the max i can do. You're not even being fair. I can't dedicate ALL MY TIME to this map. I took it home and worked on it for a whole night, and this was the best i could do. If you can't appreciate that, wait, it's not even hypothetical. YOU DON'T APRIECIATE IT AND INSTEAD YOU ASK ME TO RE-DO IT AGAIN. Are u fucking crazy? And i thought you were a reasonable teacher. Yeah..right. I hate you. I hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you. I hate your class i hate you i hate your attitude i hate it when you pms AND I DETEST YOUR SMELL.


So that was what happened today. this week is supposed to be spirit week but hell there is no spirit at our school. I take so much time organizing events for the student body, but i find myself standing up there being stared at blankly when i ask "how's everyone doing today!"
wtf is wrong with you people. you're the ones who complain that "ohh student council sucks they don't do anything." well look who's talking.




i am so sick of everything. of work, of life, of you, of myself, of the whole world.
stay way from me or i will bite you.

in depression.

i wake up this morning and suddenly i feel so exhausted.
i'm so tired of school, i'm so tired of love [in general]; i'm so tired of my life. i'm tired of having to wake up in the mornings, i'm tired of organizing this and that event in school, and needless to say, i'm tired of working/studying/doing homework over the weekend. my birthday is coming up in just two days, but i don't feel the spirit. which is unusual because i'm the type who likes parties, especially on my birthday. i can't concentrate in class, and i'm distracted more than i usually am. the sad thing is, i don't know why this is.

sins.

this week was a horrible week. it was just horrible. well it was more a combination of extreme happiness and extreme depression. anyway. this is my own business. there's nothing that i can or want to share.

okay. just for the fun of it. i stole this from Sai on facebook:

Seven Deadly Sins Survey

◄Wrath►

Who did you last get angry with?
isn't this question supposed to ask who i last got angry AT?..
myself.

What is your weapon of choice?
manipulation.

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
yes. but not my bf.

How about the same sex?
all the time. hahahahha.

Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
uhh i don't want to think about it.

What is your pet peeve?
condescending people.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
i don't keep grudges, but i take a while to let them go.

◄Sloth►

What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
reading for my World Lit paper.

What is the latest you've ever woken up?
2pm

Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
my cousin in Singapore

What is the last lame excuse that you made?
i need to go to the bathroom. (to avoid someone)

How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
five times as usual.

◄Gluttony►

What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
don't have one

Are you a meat eater?
YES. Chee says i'm carnivorous.

Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits
kind of.

Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
when it's needed, yes

Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
salty. soup.

Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
NO WAY.

◄Greed►

How many credit cards do you own?
i wish i had one

If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
go the the States, get a pent house for my future bf and i.

Would you rather be rich or famous?
rich.

Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
no.

◄Lust►
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
censored

What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
height is number one.

Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons at once?
of course not.


◄Envy►

What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
hot body.

Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
what does this mean

If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
Maggie Q

Have you ever been cheated on?
no.

Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
duh

What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
having perfect pitch

◄What deadly sin...►

Do you do the most often?
envy/pride

Do you do the least often?
..

Is your favorite to act on?
greed



:)

Alcohol take two.

"Alochol:
Reminds me of Amsterdam.
The night of the dance,
The dizziness and the music.
Your mind and body -
the 4 cups of beer.

Alcohol is bitter;

Alcohol. yeah, i understand now."

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lol I dug this up from one of my old diaries that was collecting dust in the corner of my room.

nothing to post.

i don't have the inspiration to write.
WHY?!



ah. Zennie's coming back soon from Holland! Miss yaaaaa muchh much.



shit. i'm so tired la. and what happened to my writing whims :(

the land of no crabs.

Hohoho i am back from Krabbi Island.
Ok. First of all, for all you fellow Malaysians, we should all be proud that we have fab islands like Langkawi, Sabah, Club Med etc to go to. Krabbi Island is NOTHING compared to them. [no offense to Thais] For one, the beach is dirty. Two, there's just..too many people; it's White-People dominated. Three, the food sucks. Four, it's not even an "island". It's like....just a beach by a small town called Krabbi. I mean sure it was relaxing and all.... but it's just not worth going if you live in Malaysia.

okay la. I'll cut down on the words and continue with zee photos :D


the resort was decent i have to say.








lol oh dear what a cam whore.










Rara the elephant who stank.







these tents were nice though.


and this is just so romantic. A dinner by the beach underneath a tent. AHH. You know whenever i go to these beaches and i see those lovey-dovey couples all over the place..i feel SO jealous. I wish one day I could escape Malaysia and enjoy a few days with my baby. Unfortunately this dream is still unreachable. ):


and this is the night view!


the only thing decent about this resort was the awesomely romantic night ambiance.


our excursion to Phi Phi island? (i forgot the name) it was here that we went snorkeling and fishing.


too bad we only caught 4 fishes for BBQ.


they were quote sating though.


lol okay then there was a CNY celebration/dinner. The lion dance was...worse than mediocre. (i mean usually you'd have two lions right? and then they'd perform a series of undoable stunts that make the audience go "whaaaaaaaaaaaaa". But this one was kind of sad. It just had one lion dancing around in circles.) Likewise for the other dances..like the Chinese Umbrella Dance. I mean they were just decent enough to fulfill a White person's viewing..but for a Chinese, you'd start throwing oranges at the dancers. (ahahaha that's Chinese decorum i tell you.)




yeap that's the night view of the swimming pool.


and i still don't know why it's even called KRABBI. i didn't see any crabs.






fuck. school starts tomorrow and i still have a pile of HW to do. shit and now i have another CNY dinner to attend. ahhhhhhhhhhhh someone save me.

dong dong chang is here!

First of all,
I AM FUCKING DONE WITH MY SATS. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

But then that was only SAT I. Now i have to do SAT II. WTF will this ever end. I am so sick of Metropolitan College as well. The petite room, the huge clock, the unstable table, the fierce woman proctor whose expression was so cold but condescending i wanted to punch her in the eye, and this stupid Korean [sorry my dear Korean friends that i'm so disdainful towards this Korean. It's just that the last time i took it another Korean dude did the same thing] duude next to me who kept going "Aiiishhhhhhhhhhhhhh". please. if you want to make unnecessary sounds go outside and do it.


lol okay. i'm going to ramble about a few other things.
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look at this photo.


YES. A BARRED PRISON WINDOW.
Nowadays my friends keep asking me "why can't you sneak out at night?! like midnight!?!" Well there you go my dears. THIS IS THE REASON WHY I CANNOT SNEAK OUT AT NIGHT.
EVIDENTLY, AS YOU CAN SEE, EVEN MY WINDOWS ARE BARRED. Did my parents foresee the 90% likelihood of me sneaking out at midnight or what. wtf. okok nah maybe they barred it to enhance security.

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Third thing is,
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE IN AMSTERDAM NOW. I'M SUPPOSED TO BE AT THE HAGUE FOR THE M.U.N CONFERENCE. T.T What am i doing here. okok fine fine. My parents didn't want to pay for this trip because 1. It's CNY tomorrow and 2. sSince I already went to the THIMUN SINGAPORE MUN conference, and since my parents are parsimonious as hell, they refused to pay for this trip to Holland. BUT NOOOOOOOOO. ZENNIE AND JOJO. YOU GUYS BETTER BUY ME STROOPWAFFLES. AND TAKE LOTS OF PHOTOS. AND OMG DEAR ZENNIE. YOUR BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW. Lucky ass to be spending it at Amsterdam.

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Okok last thing is,
I'm going to Krabbi Island tomorrow. (some island off Thailand) lol don't ask me why it's called Krabbi. And no it doesn't have a lot of crabs. Or maybe it does i dunno. Maybe it's shaped like a crab! Ah well. More on this when i come back! :D

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Damn it i have a lot of HW to do over this short CNY break wtf. T.T
In the mean time, Happy Chinese New Year to all! (:
Gong xi! *dong dong chang music in the background*

WISH ME GOOD LUCK GOD.

HOLY SHMOCKS.

I AM FINALLY MEETING MY NEMESIS THIS SATURDAY.
AGAIN.
the last time i met him was on October 4th. AND IN JUST TWO DAYS I MUST ENDURE HIS PATHETIC, NON-GHOSTLY PRESENCE AGAIN.



God please God give me the power to beat his ass.




my dear blog i will be posting soooon! tooo busy jotting down my stratagems to beat my nemesis.

betrayal. + film fest

"Her heart shrieked; she was furious. The photographs of her husband and Madaline were already spilled on the table in front of her. Her eyes grew wider, and more pernicious as her hands trembled to grab the photos once again. Finally, she managed to do so, but held it weakly. She scrutinized the photo with one hand clasped to her mouth; a noisome, disgusting mid-air shot of her husband and the lady's love-making. His hands clutched her breasts so desperately yet so passionately; her body and his intertwined in a way that belied the novice of the picture's surface; and the lady, that bitch, her facial expression conveyed the utmost ecstasy, and her pronounced, red, round lip screamed the most satisfied moan.

Yes, her eyes justified the truth. Disgust and hatred began to overwhelm her body. The vicious fire that was already burning began to create staccato sparks that seemed harmless but were as sharp, and as poisonous, as death."

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:) oh yes yes it feels tres good to blog :)
bah i had such a busy week wtf.
Yesterday night i finally hosted the film festival! (first one ever at MKIS).
YES IT TOOK SO LONG TO GET THIS EVENT GOING
AND IT TOOK SO MUCH HARD WORK TO ORGANIZE IT.
TY TO MY DEAR TRI-M MUSIC SOCIETY MEMBERS.
WE MADE AROUND 2000 RM :D
FREE PIZZA NEXT MEETING :D

here are some pics:


don't u just love our Tri-M shirts!! :D
it was my idea yes yes.


Chia Ni, one of our Tri-M members designed the logo for the shirts:D











if you look at the shirts closely, the left hand sleeve even has the member's name inscribed onto it!!! :D
yes admit you love them because everyone else who saw them did.


i love the orangeness of the shirts.






lol. i think boys look good in orange.




and this..was where i hosted! radio host! :D up at the booth overseeing the entire theatre! this is zee controll station! and i was zee controller oh yes yes. :D


okok Fredrik helped.








intermission~~ popcorn + lemonade.


lol Shamir didn't do anything he's not even in Tri-M. ahahaha okok don't mean to degrade you Shamirr :D [and he said he wanted to use this for CAS bahahaa] :D


yes i sure learned so much while i was up at the booth. Technology technology. (: