C'est Ma Vie

taking a chill pill!

2010-04-24T21:24:00.002+08:00

I'd totally club to this song.

In the meantime, GO IB EXAMS.

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What You Waiting For -
Mizz Mina ft. Colby O'Donis

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FWpXqaAtgU

[colby]
baby i never seen someone with your body
you make me want get this party started
hey baby comein tell me what this all
baby baby
tell me what you what you waiting for

[mizz nina]
baby i never seen someone with your body
you make me wanna get a little notty
hey baby come in get it it's all yours
baby baby
tell me what you what you waiting for

[colby]
its your birthday
so tell me what's you want it too

[mizz nina]
its my birthday
im really wanna get with you

[colby]
drop the beat now and may be we can get it started

[mizz nina]
will go insane and take you to the after party

[colby]
so what's your name hey baby what's your name oh yeah

[mizz nina]
sexys my name yea sexys my name

[colby]
ok and whats your game hey baby what's your game
[mizz nina]
ok i like to play..i ..i like to play

[colby]
baby i never seen someone with your body
you make me want get this party started
hey baby comein tell me what this all
baby baby
tell me what you what you waiting for

[mizz nina]
baby i never seen someone with your body
you make me wanna get a little notty
hey baby come in get it it's all yours
baby baby
tell me what you what you waiting for

[colby]
hey sexy girl from kuala lumpur
[mizz nina]
hey baby that's me i'll be on the dance floor

[colby]
i got you with surprise we pop in up in VIP
[mizz nina]
and if i ask nice can i take you home with me

baby let's get crazy come and loose control
you want to tear up after party
i know you wants some more
i wanna see you with that body

baby come and get it
what you what you waiting for!

:)

it has to end, doesn't it.

2010-04-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

So I've decided to start blogging again. Because I think I'll be needing this in the months to come, and especially after I leave Malaysia to the States. As May approaches and senior year comes to an end, it's weird; I feel more and more lonely, and isolated. The bittersweet-ness of what is about to come has hit me far too early, and I find myself not able to concentrate on the present (i.e IB Exams); and instead my mind wanders off to the future of what will become of me. Believe me, I am not strong, or independent. I can already foresee my midnight bawls on the phone. The mere thought of leaving my family and my friends aches.

blank.

2009-08-28T20:02:00.001+08:00

there must be someone out there for me.

yeah; this is what i want.

2009-08-26T19:33:00.007+08:00

i want disco;
i want lights.

i want beer;
i want alcohol.

i want dizzz
i want vodka.

i want techno;
i want dance.

i want party;
i want you.

it will all be worth it.

2009-08-15T14:37:00.005+08:00

Seeing as I have spare time now (after working on a mind-blogging Math portfolio and wondering whether or not a chemical reaction is acidic or alkaline), I think I'm going to update you guys with some stuff.

So I'm officially a senior. Well, truth be told there really isn't much difference. Walking down to my homeroom I still feel like a junior (probably because I've had Gustavo as my homeroom teacher for the third year now). There really isn't anything special about being a senior - yeah, sure, we're the oldest bunch at school now, and we have off-campus privileges, but there really isn't much that's interesting. As usual the heavy workload stresses some of us out, and with Extended Essays and Portfolios and Internal Assessments due, it's like suddenly you just got hit on the head with a stone and your mind goes from painful to heavy to fatigue.

But the world suddenly seems bigger, and more complicated when the future comes glaring at us and we start thinking about colleges, SATs, personal statements and a whole lot more. It's actually quite daunting to think that we'd all be parting our own ways in just less than a year.

The first few days back at school - getting back into the realm of academics and social pressures and all that High School drama - was actually quite horrible for me. I guess the whole thing just overwhelmed me a little too much and I felt utterly trapped and depressed.

But I've come to realize that my senior year should be the most daring, risky, fun, challenging and I guess happy time of my life. So despite the work, late-nights and occasional breakdowns, I'm ready to cherish every part of this journey before it's too late to regret. [:

nothing else.

2009-08-07T19:50:00.003+08:00

There are certain thoughts that run through my head that I can't get rid of. There are certain feelings that I am desperate to express, but afraid to reveal. I have been tied to this feeling of insecurity long ago, but it has never affected me so much until now.

i found out what killed my happiness today.

2009-08-04T17:56:00.002+08:00

2. I just read The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time so I have the sudden whim to write like Mark Haddon. I know I haven't written a post in a long time but I guess now is the time to do so. Just a few minutes ago I was literally lying down on my bed thinking about life. I also found out today that I was chosen to be a photographer at THIMUN Singapore this year rather than an Editor which was actually the position I had applied for. So I am quite sad about this because I really wanted to go and now I don't know if I want to anymore. Today is also the 4th which is a very special day for my bff and I.

3. Today I also went to Ann Perreau music studios which is the place I go to for my flute lessons. My flute teacher Mr. Alex is a really nice guy. Today we had lunch together after I had a flute rehearsal. We went to Starbucks and I ate a piece of sugar doughnut and drank a cup of ice vanilla latte with jelly. It was fun because it was the first time I saw Mr. Alex checking out a woman. This woman had nice legs according to Mr. Alex. I dared him to go and ask for her number but he insisted that he'd come back tomorrow at the same time so I don't have to see him if he gets rejected by her. Anyway I had a nice chat with Mr. Alex. We talked about his flings and his on and off girlfriend.

5. I also made a vital discovery today. I think I much prefer to be in a hot place than in a cold place. Like right now I'm typing on my labtop with the AC switched off and the lights switched off too. I like to be in the dark. Or maybe it's because I'm depressed now.

7. I'm quite sad too that school starts in two days. I keep thinking about the future and what it's going to be like and whether or not I will be accepted to my Early-Decision College and whether or not I will like it there. And when I said earlier that I was thinking about life, I meant that I was thinking about what I will become when I become an adult. I don't know what it means to become an adult because Mum always says its when you get your first job and Dad says it's when you go to College so I'm always confused.

11. Tomorrow will be the first driving lesson I have with my instructor. Tomorrow is also my school's orientation for new students. But I don't feel like going to the orientation but I think I will go to school in the morning because Mum needs to pay for the bus fees and I need to get new uniform since my old ones are yellow and I don't like the color yellow.

13. But anyway I am happy I got to do all the homework I'm supposed to. Now I have one day left before school begins and I think I will try to get plenty of sleep so I'm ready for school on Thursday.

dance dance dance till you drop.

2009-07-14T18:19:00.001+08:00

Okay. I cannot get over this song atm.

All I ever wanted
was to see you smiling
I know that I love you
oh baby why don't you see

All I ever wanted
was to see you smiling
all I ever wanted
was to make you mine
I know that I love you
oh baby why don't you see
that all I ever wanted
was you and me

I'm so alone
here on my own
and I'm waiting for you to come
I want to be
a part of you
think of all the things we could do
and everyday, you're in my head
I want to have you in my bed
you are the one, you're in my eyes
all I ever wanted in my life

All I ever wanted
was to see you smiling
all I ever wanted
was to make you mine
I know that I love you
oh baby why don't you see
that all I ever wanted
was you and me

Basshunter - All I Ever Wanted

And omg doesn't its video make you want to dance and club so badly!

merry-go-round.

2009-07-06T23:05:00.005+08:00

There are so many things I wish I had, and so many I wish I could obtain. When I was four, I wanted to be a magician; at eight, I wanted to be a musician. But after I turned fourteen, I wished I grew up to be a teacher. At fifteen, I couldn't choose between being an anchor or being a hotel manager. And when I finally turned sweet sixteen, I decided I would try psychology, or even literature. But now, I'm seventeen and almost eighteen, and I still can't seem to paint my future. I look at the talents I have, and the hobbies I enjoy. I love playing the piano and I love singing. But they are only hobbies. I wish I had a soulful voice that I could deliver, and I wish my mind could hear and sing a different melody everyday. I love to write, I love to sing and I love to play the piano. Yet the only thing I cannot see myself doing, is being a songwriter, or even a singer. My writing whims come and go, and I don't have the persistence and commitment that I need to become a writer. My dedication to music has never remained high - my impatience will never allow me to pursue this. I love the feeling of success and attention when I speak in front of many, yet I've also learned that teaching requires so much effort, so much dedication and so much patience. I struggle through so many problems, with family and with friends, and I never get out without hurting someone, or hurting myself. So how do I study psychology, if I'm the one who needs a psychologist?

There are so many things I can't answer. I dream to be someone I can't, and to have some things I cannot get. I don't want to be famous in the future, but I want to be recognized. But how do I get this, if I don't even know what I want?

I'm still a kid and I don't know what I want. I'm on a merry-go-round that doesn't seem to stop; and until I find a direction, I will always be that girl.

And the truth is, this matters so much, so much to me.

robert hoffman.

2009-06-30T13:39:00.003+08:00

muahaha. this is my new desktop background :D hey i made it myself okay! oh i love Robert Hoffman. I can't stop watching Step Up 2. Just for him. Oh he overrules Lee Hom. And Chad Michael Murray. (the only two other guys i find attractive in the entertainment industry).

no more than it was.

2009-06-22T21:11:00.005+08:00

"for the first time, he sounded so distant on the phone. her mind wouldn't stop wondering whether it was because they hadn't spoken for two months, or whether it was genuinely because he was making an international call so it had to be short and terse. she kept fighting back the awful assumption that it was because he had fallen for someone else - not that it would matter to her. she tried occupying herself with some homework, but instead she found herself reading his old emails - those that were full of love, color, rainbows and unicorns; those that never truly existed or ceased to come back. but the more she read, the more restless she grew. she felt her body pull and her muscles tense; suddenly there was a roaring wave beneath her heart that battled to escape, and when it did, she was determined to do to whatever it takes to find out who this new girl was."

not quite the City yet.

2009-06-16T06:05:00.002+08:00

SO HELLLO FROM NY.

Right now i'm writing from Syracuse, NY, @ Sheraton Hotel. I love how most hotels at NY (i guess probably the States in general) provide free internet access. So for the past few days i've been touring Universities. I feel so sick now. I arrived at NYC, but i haven't actually toured NYC yet. After our arrival, we drove to Boston the next day. Truth be told, Boston wasn't that much of a shopping city. It's like one of those cities where..you've been here once and you just wouldn't mind not coming back the second time. Or maybe it's just me, haha. Then again, as of now Paris is the only city i'd love to live in. Anyway, the city was still great! Weather is awesome - very cool, with slight wind breezes every now and then. I didn't buy much, haha. Okay that's because things were just too expensive. I swear, you look at the price tags and you'd think if that was in Ringgit it would be reasonable; but it's in US dollars. Like a burger set at McDonalds would cost 10 US Dollars. That's like RM40!!!!!. Anyway haha that's not a surprise.

I've bought a lot of stuff though. Well, more like, merchandises from University stores. YES i went to Harvard college (seriously...it's not as 'prestigious' as it looks on websites). I also bought a sweater from Brown's University bookstore. haha. Okay, if i quit the U talk..i did buy short shorts with Boston written on the back. I bought a few other stationaries and tops at Taiwan as well (we had to stay one night at Taipei to take a transit flight the day after to NY). If rainbows and the supposed pot of gold at its end ever existed, i'd walk over one and grab as much $ as i can; then i'll fly back to Taipei's night markets and buy the entire market. hahahaha.

okay okay. i have a lot more to say but unfortunately i have 15 minutes left on this computer. (yeah there's free internet but you have limited time) what a bugger huh.

more sooooon!

take two.

2009-06-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

testing 1 2 3

2009-06-06T01:12:00.004+08:00

sorry, that was complete nonsense.
but what a fun way to blog!

touchdown.

2009-06-03T20:26:00.010+08:00

it hasn't quite hit me yet; you know, the whole end of a school year thing. it's not like i'm graduating high school, but i do feel the need to celebrate the end of my junior year. it does mark the end of one year of IB. that's an achievement that needs to be commended! i don't really want to look ahead, because i don't really want to face that daunting summer to-do list; at least not at the moment. for now i just want to enjoy the freedom i've earned, and the the joy that will hit me soon enough so that summer will be as content as i want it to be. summer's about the beach, the city, the glams and of course the gossip and the flings! fortunately i will be exposed to the summer heat, gossip and above all the summer skyline when i walk down the city of lights, glam, alcohol and money..yeah baby - New York City. okay i admit i'm going to the States partly because i will be looking at Colleges (i'm driving from NYC > Boston > Rochester > back to NYC). But anyway that doesn't mean i won't be using the city to my advantage; give me some more money and i promise i'll get everybody souvenirs from NYC! ;]

junior year. was quite like a cliche. there were those inevitable ups and downs, tears and yells, and not to forget, depressions and pms-es. beauty sleeps gradually disappeared, and mornings became our enemies. friends grew apart, but some grew closer. we juniors are a small group, but we've relied on each other through our first year of IB. from the IB retreat to Malaysian Studies, and then to our first Prom night. this journey wasn't easy. there were many times when i felt like giving up, backing out of IB. there were times when things just weren't going the right way, and i needed to rehink where i was heading, or if i was heading anywhere at all.

decisions were made, but many regretted. sometimes you can be so preoccupied with yourself that you forget the most important people in your life; you forget your friends. i want to tell all of you that i will always remember those warm hugs, big smiles and continuous encouragement you have all given me. in all the darkness and gloom that surrounded me, you were the ones who brightened my day; you were the color pencils that brightened and sweetened my life.

amidst all the hard work, we did manage to pull off a few rendez-vous and gatherings: summer bbq party at Zennie's, my birthday outing, girly sleepovers, Laundry's mocktails, Sunway's ice and lagoon, beer with the Koreans, Ishida's visits...etc.

in the end we pulled through all of it, so let's not give up. for now let the work pile up on the farthest side of our working tables. grab a paper, and make a to-do list for summer - one that's NOT work or ib-related. :)

the final reach.

2009-05-27T22:57:00.006+08:00

countdown to summer begins today.
we're almost there.
1 year of IB and we're almost there.
1 week of school left.
summer in 8 days.
10 hours until exams begin;
we're almost there.

in the meantime, here's my exam schedule:

Thursday
none.

Friday
Morning: Physics HL
Afternoon: Chemistry HL

Monday
Morning: English SL

Tuesday
Morning: Math HL

Wednesday
Morning: History SL

summer i know you are waiting for me.

only a dream.

2009-05-12T00:37:00.004+08:00

i want to live in a world,
where it's only me and you;
i don't care if the mornings are dull and the nights gloomy,
just as long as i have you.

i want to sit by the road,
and kiss you;
until your lips have gone red,
and your face flushed.

i want time to stop,
to cease the moment;
so i can live the memory,
for as long as i need.

a compilation.

2009-05-04T17:47:00.008+08:00

hello helllo!
Ah. It's been so long since I actually had the time to blog, given all the IB work. And yes! This post isn't an ode to procrastination! It's a celebration of a no-work day! (well okay; maybe not. I'm behind all of my IA's and Math Portfolios; and needless to say, CAS and EE). Anyway, that's not the point of this post! I know I haven't been writing at all for the past few weeks. That's really because I just had so much going on at school. So rather than having me ramble about all that stuff, I'll illustrate them through some photos!

April 17th to 19th: MYMUN VI CONFERENCE
This year, I was Editor-In-Chief for the MYSPY Newspaper!

April 25th: Variety Show (sorry no photos for this one) + Pot Luck Party with ISE Australians

My Tri-M members

May 2nd: Tri-M Music Honor Society RUMAH HOPE Trip (i have much to say about this house. but will save this for next time).

May 4th [today]: Outing with Bff Zennie! And the birth of his new ODM watch!!

so that's the update. now I have three weeks left of school, which means three weeks before exams. bahhh, here we go again.

emotions run.

2009-04-23T11:42:00.006+08:00

some things are better left unspoken. cliche i know.

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I love you, i hate you, i love you, i hate you . . . . . give me a flower with petals and I'll tell you the answer.

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"this is my blog and is none of your business." - KY

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stand up for yourself; no matter what others say (:

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cherish your friends.

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IB creates AND exacerbates depression.
"..so do black dudes" - Allan

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I WANT TO KILL PHYSICS.

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I'm so proud of my World Lit paper [; (only because it's the first real IB assessment that's going to be graded by IB)

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I love my bff [:

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I love Chee and the MZ [:
"..and the negro race" - Allan

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I'm Deputy Secretary General AND MYSPY Newspaper Head for next year's MYMUN Conference:)

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Allan is looking at my screen. T.T
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I'm taking the SAT Reasoning Test for the last time (yes baby) this Saturday. But omg how pressuring T.T I NEED MY 22OO. yeah as if i'm going to get that score :(
".. i'm pretty sure i would have gotten 2200 if i was black" - Allan

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I discovered my penchant for journalism!

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i will destroy ur face. - Allan

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I loved my MYSPY Team!

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(i wrote this during Math class with Allan bahah)

my weekend.

2009-04-18T22:40:00.003+08:00

MYMUN VI conference this week! More updates later but just thought I'd drop by! I LOVE my MYSPY Team!! You guys are STARS :)

In the mean time, haha; i think my neighbor's having a mini-concert - probably for some celebration of a kind. So, even though my 1000+ songs in iTUNES were all unfortunately washed away a few weeks ago, i have background music for the remainder of my night! They're singing songs that are really old, but so classic! Yeah, it's not like a real concert where there are real celebrities. I think it's probably one that my neighbor orgnanized themselves. It's like a small karoake session on stage! :D The singing's actually pretty decent. I actually hear music rather than noise! :)

learn.

2009-04-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

some people just disappoint you. sometimes, even the closest people you have disappoint you. The worst part is that they don't know it and you don't really want to do anything about it for fear of a fight. so then you let it go, but then there's just that dominating feeling of unfairness that does not seem to fade away. so what do you do? you let it go, and lose the only opportunity you had to teach that someone a lesson that might just be useful to him/her in the future.

Another boring day of IB

2009-04-14T13:59:00.003+08:00

The date today is 14th April 2009. It's a Tuesday, and this is actually my least favorite day of the week. Why? Because it's the middle of the week and there's nothing at all we can look forward to. On Wednesday's, the story is different because we can slowly cruise into the weekend. On Mondays, i kind of feel as though there's something to look forward to. Well anyway, that's just how i think about it. Life doing the IB Diploma is pretty dull, so dull it makes you count the days until the weekend. Believe me, those people that take 4 IB classes only and amongst them only take 1 HL class are so irritating when they whine about their busy life. Like seriously, they have no idea what we have to go through!!!

OK la i don't know why i'm so mad now. Probably because there's so much work i have to and so little hope i can see of getting it done in the near future. To those soon-to-be Diploma students, the most important skill you need to possess is far-sightedness because i swear if you look into your planner and see the amount of work you have to do in the coming 2 months, you'd pass out.

Anyway, before i go i want to leave you with a picture summarizing the thoughts going around in my head:

to myself.

2009-04-12T01:08:00.001+08:00

gosh i hate you.

bird.

2009-04-01T19:37:00.003+08:00

i'm locked in a cage and i can't get out.

looking ahead.

2009-03-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

i've been thinking quite a lot for the past few days. i've been thinking about my future; you know, what i want to do and where i wish to go. sometimes i feel so jealous of the seniors at our school! they're done with everything including CAS and EE, and in just a few months time they will be graduating, and then stepping into a whole new dimension - heading to Uni and meeting new people. i wish i was at that stage - knowing I've been accepted into a college that actually wants me, looking foward to living alone and being independant and making new friends! but i have a feeling that when i do get to this stage, i would want time to turn back. right now i'm so eager to graduate, but i still have a long way to go. my to-do list just goes on forever; it feels like there's just so much to do and not enough time to do it. time is passing by too quickly; in a blink of an eye it'll be the end of my junior year; by the end of this year i would be done with college apps; and by February of next year, i will be turning 18.

maybe i should be appreciating my final years in high school instead of contemplating about the future. i don't really know.

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this is a must see if you're an IB victim.

2009-03-16T00:35:00.004+08:00

for all you IB haters and procrastinators, the following website is a must-read!!!

http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/IB
check it out.

Here are some stuff from the website:
"You know you're in IB when ...You wonder if there's Cliff's Notes on the Calculus book." HAHAHA.
"The extended essay is a 4000 word demonic piece of writing, requiring the students to bullshit about their chosen topic."

THE ASIAN TEST.

2009-03-13T20:18:00.005+08:00

ok i HAD to steal this from Honoka when she tagged me on Facebook.
Just know that in my life i never really wanted to be TOO Asian!

THE ASIAN TEST

Do it if you are Asian.
(:If you are not, just do it anyways. :P

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia
[x] You were born in Asia
[ ] You use the term "Azn"
[x] You think DDR is cool
[ ] You watch anime
[ ] You like Korean drama (but i like Taiwanese dramas)
[ ] You have stuff hanging on your phone (not anymore- this is a Japanese thing to do)
[ ] Your parents want you to marry within your own race
[x] You eat rice almost everyday
[x] You drink lemon tea (u don't have to be Asian to drink this?!)

X's so far: 5/10

[ ] You style your hair (i don't have to! it's straight already!)
[ ] You have a xanga/bebo/myspace/friendster
[x] You speak languages other than English
[x ] Your parents are strict compared to other REALLY asian parents
[x ] Your parents have high expectations of you.
[ x] You always get A's/B's on your report
[ x]You do Chemistry/Biology/Physics/Accounting
[x ]You know your multiplication table (T.T anyone who doesn't know should be in kindergarten! no offence that is)
[x] You play badminton or table tennis
[x] You've seen the asian version The ring/The grudge

X's so far: 13/20 (dear me. i don't think i'm doing well on the test so far)

[ ] You own an asian car
[x] You're not the only child (uh what does this have to do with being Asian or not T.T)
[ x] You've gotten little red envelopes around February
[ ] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do
[ ] If you're a girl, you prefer white guys over asian guys, or if you're a guy you prefer asian girls[x] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted
[ ] You can do the rubiks cube
[x] You have a box of noodles somewhere in your house
[ ] You play video games

X's so far: 17/30

[ x] Your parents won't let you go out if you have school the next day
[x] You have asian songs on your computer/iPod
[x] You don't like football
[x] You have/had a curfew
[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means
[ ] You know what purikura is
[x] You like bubble tea
[x ] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come
[ ] You've played final fantasy
[ ] You believe in fortune cookies

X's so far: 23/40

[x] Everytime you're going out your parents ask you where you're going and what time you'll be home
[ ] You have karaoke at home (i wish.)
[x] You have have heard of BoA, Gazette, Ayumi Hamasaki, Gackt, Jay Chou, Twins, or DBSK
[ ] You've been to a LAN more than 3 times
[x] You have incense sticks/moth balls in your house (ahahahhahha this is a good one.)
[ ] You own a gaming console
[ x] You play a musical instrument
[x] You don't wear shoes in your house
[x] You can use chopsticks well
[x] You get nothing if you do well in school

X's so far: 30/50

[ ] You know what bok choy is
[ ] You've heard the song "Got rice?"
[x] You have/had a tutor
[ ] You've had pockys/yan yan before
[ x] When you seek for your mother's permission she replies "Ask your dad"
[x] You like to save things in case you need them later, even if you never use it.
[x ] You have tasted durian
[ ] You hope to be employed in something practical, like medicine, law, accounting, or engineering
[x ] You have eaten dog or snake
[ ] Everyone thinks you're at least a year younger than you actually are

X's so far: 35/60

[x] You call your adult family friends "Auntie" or "Uncle"
[ ] You have or have had a bowl cut
[ x] Your parents enjoy(ed) comparing you to their friends' kids
[ ] You eat everything with chopsticks
[ ] You hang/hung your clothes out to dry on a line attached to the window of your flat and the window across from yours
[ x] You are applying/applied to an ivy league college
[ ] Your parents or relatives have tried setting you up with someone
[ x] You eat for breakfast what is considered food unfit for breakfast
[ x] You scored higher on the math than you did on the verbal on the SAT
[ ] You always cheer for the Asian athlete on TV

X's so far: 40/70

[ ] You love shopping at Costco because everything's cheaper when buying in bulk, even if you don't need so much
[ x] You buy rice in 50lb sacks at least
[ ] You have had to wear hand-me-downs
[ ] You get two of the same thing but one is better because it's free
[ x] You fight for the bill because of face, even though you don't actually want to pay for such an expensive meal (omg so true hahaahhaah)
[ ] You make things yourself because it's cheaper, even though it takes more time
[ ] You own a huge butcher knife but it's actually called a "vegetable knife"
[x ] You own a lot of Tommy Hilfiger or Calvin Klein
[x] You can down cups of tea like water and not feel the caffeine effects because you're used to it[ ] You love hot pot

X's so far - 44/80

[x] You make your rice without butter, spices, or salts
[ ] Your parents are especially loud on the phone
[ x] You always take home the leftovers from a restaurant
[x ] You try to coerce others into taking the leftovers if you're eating with company
[ x] You give fruits as gifts
[ ] You will waste extra gas to find cheaper gas/other things
[ x] You are smaller in size compared to the Caucasian population
[ ] You have relatives in Canada
[ x] The number 8 is an extremely lucky and important number to you
[ x] The number 4 is an extremely unlucky number to you

X's so far - 51/90

[ x] Every big event revolves around food
[x ] You have gotten used to the smells of herbal medicines
[ ] You are stick thin and want to keep it that way
[ ] You try to save money on everything you buy
[ ] You eat a lot but it doesn't add much to your weight
[ x] You care a lot about staying in fashion with the rest of Asia
[ x] School is always the number one priority in your family
[ x] You care a lot about honor and saving face
[ x] Your parents expect you to do everything right
[x] You mix languages up constantly while thinking and speaking

X's total: 58/100

25 or lower - White Washed
26-30 - European/Canadian/AmericanBorn Asian
31-40 - Pure Asian
40-45 - FOB Washed Asian
45-50 - Pure FOBS
55 and up - Hopelessly FOBBY

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH NO. WHAT. NO. THIS IS ALL MY PARENTS' FAULT. THEY ARE THE ONES WHO ARE SO ASIAN. NOT ME T.T

CC experience

2009-03-12T13:19:00.002+08:00

lol.
i'm at SKY CC now - the place where EVERY, and i mean EVERY MKIS student comes.
i came only because i was following bff Zennie since he wanted to play for a while and then go for lunch. But when i came, in front of each and every computer sat an MKIS gamer. When they saw me, all of them had the same unanimous expression: "KY?!?!?! WHOAA. KY A GAMER?!!? NO WAY!"

T.T

Allan took a photo of me even. (with Counter Strike open on my screen- not that i was playing or anything).

hahaha.

And now i hear Tim behind me screaming "FUCK" incessantly.

Damn. I should come here more often. Get exposed to what guys REALLY do when they have nothing else to do in their lives.

new re-do.

2009-03-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

ho ho ho.

i got a new hair cut today. this morning i woke up and i felt like my hair was seriously a burden. for the past few months i felt like my hair just kept growing puffier and puffier. seriously. and it sucks that that's because my hair is curly in nature. so if i don't re-bond it, i'd look like a lion. no, i'm not kidding. it's been more than a year since i last re-bonded my hair; so for the past few months it grew longer and more puffy, so puffy that the only thing i could do to my hair was tie it up in a pony tail when i go to school. but that doesn't turn out nice either, since after tying it, all the short, curly new-born hair at the tip of my forehead would spring out, making my hair totally haywire. so anyway today i went to the salon and asked for a new re-do. the barbarer looked through my hair, and in the end said "there's only one solution for this puffiness. re-bond."

-_-"

originally, i didn't want to re-bond my hair again since i've done it more than ten times in the past few years already (therefore explaining why i have so many split-ends). so when the barbarer told me the only solution was to re-bond it again, i was like.. .. T.T.
so then i suggested cutting it shorter (a little above shoulder length), and then re-bonding it.

and that was indeed what happened.

so now i look at myself in the mirror and i think "yuck". seriously.
this short-cut hair makes my face look even rounder. and i look like such a school girl nerd.
wtf T.T

something to procrastinate.

2009-03-02T20:24:00.004+08:00

i recently discovered five things.

1. I have a pimple outbreak (my face is SO oily for some goddamn reason)
2. WRIGLEY's Eclipse mints keep my attention span high. (something i desperately need nowadays; IB's pushing me down the drain.)
3. My new favorite song is You Found Me by The Fray. (dedicated to me by bff Zennie)
4. I gained 1 kg today. (wtf. i just started Varsity Badminton season with practices three times a week and i don't usually eat at school and i gain 1kg. Hokum.?!)
5. I must now attend to my pile of hw.

T.T

a small whine

2009-02-24T20:44:00.005+08:00

it's been so many days since i last blogged! ah well. there has just been so many things going on T.T and this won't end until the end of this school year, malheureusement [sadly]. I actually have so many things to tell everybody; but i don't have the time now. Just thought i'd drop by to say hi to my poor little abandoned blog. I miss you! And everybody's comments! I promise i'll blog soon! I learned so many things over the past few days though: things like, I'm a nice girl at sight but an angry person at heart, that i love to dance and am not afraid to show that especially if given techno music (Infinity 2008's gotta be the one everybody loves), that i'm a person who's seeking new love, that my grades are falling because the IB program is playing its fatal trick on me, that i'm rather competitive (once again only at heart) when it comes to sports (and maybe academics but that's not a surprise)...and so many other things.

sigh;
life is hard,. and jealousy is just a pain.
love is and will always be non-existent,
and what more, fun is forever out of reach.

an update of my rundowned week.

2009-02-13T20:28:00.010+08:00

hello hello! ah the happiness.
haha okay before you think this is going to be another one of my emo-aggro posts (seeing as the last few posts were all of this kind) it's going to be the opposite this time! :) I feel much better now. It's Friday thank god for that. Yeah i don't think i need to emphasize again that this week was just so stressful. But hey, i got into the Varsity Badminton Team! How's that! haha nah, i got in only because there were so little girls to choose from. Anyway! I My birthday was last Monday! I have some pics to show all of ya! Then I'll add on some Spirit Week photos as well. I guess overall Spirit Week was great fun. It got better and i guess more 'spirited' as the week progressed. I'll tell you why this week was just such a hectic week! I was busy organizing:

1. Spirit week activities at lunch
2. Valentine day grams
3. IB tests + projects + hw overload (were all due this week since our edline quarter 3 reports were due this morning..so all my teachers dumped a shitload of work on us students. cruel.)
4. Varsity Badminton tryouts happen to be on this week as well. (I went on Monday, 3-5pm, Wednesday 4-6pm, and Thursday 3-5pm.)

ah. this week was just a combination of fun, anger, emo-ism, pms-es, and love! ^^
aren't we all glad it's over and we have a wonderful weekend to look forward to :)

oh and before i proceed to zee photos, sorry for anyone who i shouted at, i glared at, i didn't smile or say hi to, who i totally treated as rubbish-bins (haha Junichi, Jonathan, Scott and Zennie during TOK. i totally brokedown that class when i spilled the many to-do lists that i had to complete.). Oh and to add on to this list, i'm sorry that i wrote a post about how i hated my [use-to-be] favorite teacher Mr. Fourmond, that i kept smashing my dear bff Zennie's phone on the table when i couldn't get a taxi, that i was so busy i wasn't able to hang out with my aunties MZ and Chee AND my other sweeties during lunch, OH and finally, that i said "YOU GUYS ARE PATHETIC" to the entire HS student body during the first day of spirit week when nobody volunteered to join the lunch-time activity.

AND FINALLY, THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WERE CONCERNED OF ME AND WHO COPED WITH MY PMS-ES THIS WEEK :D [namely Mr. Munro, bff Zennie, aunties MZ and Chee, sis Liyana, my table of friends at lunch, the Koreans + Shamir + Johnathan.] I love everybody ^^

the street @ the curve.

birthday dinner at TGIF.

gift from aunty CHEE :) [she calls me kanachu don't ask me why.]

the TGIF crew did a very embarrassing birthday ritual for me. watch video at the end of the post!

MZ you're missing in the photo! :(

korean 1: scottie

korean 2: jo jo

korean 3: ho sang

+ Shamir

+ Jonathan

Iris <3

Kristi <3

Diddo [Liyana] <3

and ma bff Zennie couldn't make it :( I NO FORGIVE U.

SPIRIT WEEK:

[twin day] thank aunty 02 for making those shirts!

peace and love

and this is my table of friends. they are all so sweet <3

they are inseperable!

triplets!

my former algebra II teacher. Mr Harkness on wacky day.

and here's the TGIF birthday ritual:
they made me stand on the chair in front of everyone.
they made me sing to my table of friends.
they made me hold a bottle of tomato ketchup that they dubbed as the 'spiritual candle'.
they made me blow the candle 1 meter away from where i was standing.

toooooooooooooooodles!

i must release this. forgive me for my being moody and mean.

2009-02-12T12:38:00.002+08:00

Remember how i said last week was just a horrible, horrible week? Well this week's worse. Then again it's not even the end of the week yet. But yes, you can see how horrible, HORRIBLE this week REALY is. Is it even possible to have something worse than horrible? Yes. To Mr. Fourmond: if you can't fucking appreciate the map that I took home to do by MYSELF, then fuck off. I have a life, i have to cope with IB, i have so many things to worry about that map is the max i can do. You're not even being fair. I can't dedicate ALL MY TIME to this map. I took it home and worked on it for a whole night, and this was the best i could do. If you can't appreciate that, wait, it's not even hypothetical. YOU DON'T APRIECIATE IT AND INSTEAD YOU ASK ME TO RE-DO IT AGAIN. Are u fucking crazy? And i thought you were a reasonable teacher. Yeah..right. I hate you. I hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you. I hate your class i hate you i hate your attitude i hate it when you pms AND I DETEST YOUR SMELL.

So that was what happened today. this week is supposed to be spirit week but hell there is no spirit at our school. I take so much time organizing events for the student body, but i find myself standing up there being stared at blankly when i ask "how's everyone doing today!"
wtf is wrong with you people. you're the ones who complain that "ohh student council sucks they don't do anything." well look who's talking.

i am so sick of everything. of work, of life, of you, of myself, of the whole world.
stay way from me or i will bite you.

in depression.

2009-02-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

i wake up this morning and suddenly i feel so exhausted.
i'm so tired of school, i'm so tired of love [in general]; i'm so tired of my life. i'm tired of having to wake up in the mornings, i'm tired of organizing this and that event in school, and needless to say, i'm tired of working/studying/doing homework over the weekend. my birthday is coming up in just two days, but i don't feel the spirit. which is unusual because i'm the type who likes parties, especially on my birthday. i can't concentrate in class, and i'm distracted more than i usually am. the sad thing is, i don't know why this is.

sins.

2009-02-06T21:19:00.004+08:00

this week was a horrible week. it was just horrible. well it was more a combination of extreme happiness and extreme depression. anyway. this is my own business. there's nothing that i can or want to share.

okay. just for the fun of it. i stole this from Sai on facebook:

Seven Deadly Sins Survey

◄Wrath►

Who did you last get angry with?
isn't this question supposed to ask who i last got angry AT?..
myself.

What is your weapon of choice?
manipulation.

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
yes. but not my bf.

How about the same sex?
all the time. hahahahha.

Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
uhh i don't want to think about it.

What is your pet peeve?
condescending people.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
i don't keep grudges, but i take a while to let them go.

◄Sloth►

What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
reading for my World Lit paper.

What is the latest you've ever woken up?
2pm

Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
my cousin in Singapore

What is the last lame excuse that you made?
i need to go to the bathroom. (to avoid someone)

How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning?
five times as usual.

◄Gluttony►

What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
don't have one

Are you a meat eater?
YES. Chee says i'm carnivorous.

Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits
kind of.

Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
when it's needed, yes

Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
salty. soup.

Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
NO WAY.

◄Greed►

How many credit cards do you own?
i wish i had one

If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
go the the States, get a pent house for my future bf and i.

Would you rather be rich or famous?
rich.

Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
no.

◄Lust►
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
censored

What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
height is number one.

Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons at once?
of course not.

◄Envy►

What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
hot body.

Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
what does this mean

If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
Maggie Q

Have you ever been cheated on?
no.

Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
duh

What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
having perfect pitch

◄What deadly sin...►

Do you do the most often?
envy/pride

Do you do the least often?
..

Is your favorite to act on?
greed

:)

Alcohol take two.

2009-02-01T12:12:00.004+08:00

"Alochol:
Reminds me of Amsterdam.
The night of the dance,
The dizziness and the music.
Your mind and body -
the 4 cups of beer.

Alcohol is bitter;

Alcohol. yeah, i understand now."

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lol I dug this up from one of my old diaries that was collecting dust in the corner of my room.

nothing to post.

2009-01-30T23:55:00.001+08:00

i don't have the inspiration to write.
WHY?!

ah. Zennie's coming back soon from Holland! Miss yaaaaa muchh much.

shit. i'm so tired la. and what happened to my writing whims :(

the land of no crabs.

2009-01-27T17:30:00.010+08:00

Hohoho i am back from Krabbi Island.
Ok. First of all, for all you fellow Malaysians, we should all be proud that we have fab islands like Langkawi, Sabah, Club Med etc to go to. Krabbi Island is NOTHING compared to them. [no offense to Thais] For one, the beach is dirty. Two, there's just..too many people; it's White-People dominated. Three, the food sucks. Four, it's not even an "island". It's like....just a beach by a small town called Krabbi. I mean sure it was relaxing and all.... but it's just not worth going if you live in Malaysia.

okay la. I'll cut down on the words and continue with zee photos :D

the resort was decent i have to say.

lol oh dear what a cam whore.

Rara the elephant who stank.

these tents were nice though.

and this is just so romantic. A dinner by the beach underneath a tent. AHH. You know whenever i go to these beaches and i see those lovey-dovey couples all over the place..i feel SO jealous. I wish one day I could escape Malaysia and enjoy a few days with my baby. Unfortunately this dream is still unreachable. ):

and this is the night view!

the only thing decent about this resort was the awesomely romantic night ambiance.

our excursion to Phi Phi island? (i forgot the name) it was here that we went snorkeling and fishing.

too bad we only caught 4 fishes for BBQ.

they were quote sating though.

lol okay then there was a CNY celebration/dinner. The lion dance was...worse than mediocre. (i mean usually you'd have two lions right? and then they'd perform a series of undoable stunts that make the audience go "whaaaaaaaaaaaaa". But this one was kind of sad. It just had one lion dancing around in circles.) Likewise for the other dances..like the Chinese Umbrella Dance. I mean they were just decent enough to fulfill a White person's viewing..but for a Chinese, you'd start throwing oranges at the dancers. (ahahaha that's Chinese decorum i tell you.)

yeap that's the night view of the swimming pool.

and i still don't know why it's even called KRABBI. i didn't see any crabs.

fuck. school starts tomorrow and i still have a pile of HW to do. shit and now i have another CNY dinner to attend. ahhhhhhhhhhhh someone save me.

dong dong chang is here!

2009-01-24T15:13:00.008+08:00

First of all,
I AM FUCKING DONE WITH MY SATS. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

But then that was only SAT I. Now i have to do SAT II. WTF will this ever end. I am so sick of Metropolitan College as well. The petite room, the huge clock, the unstable table, the fierce woman proctor whose expression was so cold but condescending i wanted to punch her in the eye, and this stupid Korean [sorry my dear Korean friends that i'm so disdainful towards this Korean. It's just that the last time i took it another Korean dude did the same thing] duude next to me who kept going "Aiiishhhhhhhhhhhhhh". please. if you want to make unnecessary sounds go outside and do it.

lol okay. i'm going to ramble about a few other things.
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look at this photo.

YES. A BARRED PRISON WINDOW.
Nowadays my friends keep asking me "why can't you sneak out at night?! like midnight!?!" Well there you go my dears. THIS IS THE REASON WHY I CANNOT SNEAK OUT AT NIGHT.
EVIDENTLY, AS YOU CAN SEE, EVEN MY WINDOWS ARE BARRED. Did my parents foresee the 90% likelihood of me sneaking out at midnight or what. wtf. okok nah maybe they barred it to enhance security.

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Third thing is,
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE IN AMSTERDAM NOW. I'M SUPPOSED TO BE AT THE HAGUE FOR THE M.U.N CONFERENCE. T.T What am i doing here. okok fine fine. My parents didn't want to pay for this trip because 1. It's CNY tomorrow and 2. sSince I already went to the THIMUN SINGAPORE MUN conference, and since my parents are parsimonious as hell, they refused to pay for this trip to Holland. BUT NOOOOOOOOO. ZENNIE AND JOJO. YOU GUYS BETTER BUY ME STROOPWAFFLES. AND TAKE LOTS OF PHOTOS. AND OMG DEAR ZENNIE. YOUR BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW. Lucky ass to be spending it at Amsterdam.

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Okok last thing is,
I'm going to Krabbi Island tomorrow. (some island off Thailand) lol don't ask me why it's called Krabbi. And no it doesn't have a lot of crabs. Or maybe it does i dunno. Maybe it's shaped like a crab! Ah well. More on this when i come back! :D

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Damn it i have a lot of HW to do over this short CNY break wtf. T.T
In the mean time, Happy Chinese New Year to all! (:
Gong xi! *dong dong chang music in the background*

WISH ME GOOD LUCK GOD.

2009-01-22T21:21:00.004+08:00

HOLY SHMOCKS.

I AM FINALLY MEETING MY NEMESIS THIS SATURDAY.
AGAIN.
the last time i met him was on October 4th. AND IN JUST TWO DAYS I MUST ENDURE HIS PATHETIC, NON-GHOSTLY PRESENCE AGAIN.

God please God give me the power to beat his ass.

my dear blog i will be posting soooon! tooo busy jotting down my stratagems to beat my nemesis.

betrayal. + film fest

2009-01-17T17:33:00.010+08:00

"Her heart shrieked; she was furious. The photographs of her husband and Madaline were already spilled on the table in front of her. Her eyes grew wider, and more pernicious as her hands trembled to grab the photos once again. Finally, she managed to do so, but held it weakly. She scrutinized the photo with one hand clasped to her mouth; a noisome, disgusting mid-air shot of her husband and the lady's love-making. His hands clutched her breasts so desperately yet so passionately; her body and his intertwined in a way that belied the novice of the picture's surface; and the lady, that bitch, her facial expression conveyed the utmost ecstasy, and her pronounced, red, round lip screamed the most satisfied moan.

Yes, her eyes justified the truth. Disgust and hatred began to overwhelm her body. The vicious fire that was already burning began to create staccato sparks that seemed harmless but were as sharp, and as poisonous, as death."

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:) oh yes yes it feels tres good to blog :)
bah i had such a busy week wtf.
Yesterday night i finally hosted the film festival! (first one ever at MKIS).
YES IT TOOK SO LONG TO GET THIS EVENT GOING
AND IT TOOK SO MUCH HARD WORK TO ORGANIZE IT.
TY TO MY DEAR TRI-M MUSIC SOCIETY MEMBERS.
WE MADE AROUND 2000 RM :D
FREE PIZZA NEXT MEETING :D

here are some pics:

don't u just love our Tri-M shirts!! :D
it was my idea yes yes.

Chia Ni, one of our Tri-M members designed the logo for the shirts:D

if you look at the shirts closely, the left hand sleeve even has the member's name inscribed onto it!!! :D
yes admit you love them because everyone else who saw them did.

i love the orangeness of the shirts.

lol. i think boys look good in orange.

and this..was where i hosted! radio host! :D up at the booth overseeing the entire theatre! this is zee controll station! and i was zee controller oh yes yes. :D

okok Fredrik helped.

intermission~~ popcorn + lemonade.

lol Shamir didn't do anything he's not even in Tri-M. ahahaha okok don't mean to degrade you Shamirr :D [and he said he wanted to use this for CAS bahahaa] :D

yes i sure learned so much while i was up at the booth. Technology technology. (:

HELP

2009-01-17T14:29:00.003+08:00

ever get the feeling where you feel so so lazy you don't want to work
but then you feel so depressed because you know you're supposed to be working.
so you get out ur books and papers and pencils and calculator. And then you open the math book and once you see the numbers and equation, the cosine and sine and all of that stuff, it's like they suddenly turn into ants and crawl off the book so the laziness just comes back to plague u. what's worse is that you know you have a pile to do but you just don't feel like doing it. But when you do something you like and procrastinate hw, instead of feeling the joy you feel even more hopeless.

WHAT TO DO?!

give me time la!

2009-01-15T00:51:00.002+08:00

OMG I NEED TO BLOG.

but i have no time wtf.

I WILL BE BACK.
SOON.
JUST TWO MORE DAYS.

x

a mixed sneakiness.

2009-01-11T00:10:00.006+08:00

i had another one of my writing whims today. yay!
here goes:

"she's locked. she has no where to go. Her head spins; she turns to the back, then to her right, front and back again. Sweat stream down her temples while the room resounds her frazzled breath. But only tears of agony and trepidation cascade down her cheeks as she rebels against the imminent walls that bellow back at her like menacing gargoyles."

:D
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okok.
you must be thinking this post is boring t.t well well. a few days ago, i successfully SNEAKED OUT OF THE HOUSE :D (it's a big deal because i wasn't allowed to go out since i was supposed to study for stupid SATs but okay it's not like this was the first time i did it but you know)
yes yes i went to see my dear bff Zennie work as a hot [that's what Zennie wanted me to say hahaha jk jk.] chocolate salesman! and omg SHAMIR [he joined us later] THE CHOCOLATE I BOUGHT IS STILL IN YOUR DRIVER'S CAR T.T YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO GIVE EM BACK TO ME THE NEXT DAY WHEN WE MET. i hope they haven't melted t.t No i take that back; Shamir probably ate em already. T.T

dear me. everything about my facial features is wrong. even my hair - what puffiness.

this was at Chilies :D

hahahaha. Zennie. Stripping! [jk-ing kayyy]

his chocolate stand.

haha. [Shamir i didn't know you were that much taller than Zennie :O]

that's ittttttttt :D
school starts in one day. WTF MY DEAR EINSTEIN WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BELOVED THEORY OF TIME DILATION.

alcohol and heaven.

2009-01-07T21:01:00.001+08:00

"Three bottles of beer and a little red wine, and she felt tipsy already. It helped the momentum of her body on the dance floor, and she realized that for once, she felt ecstatic. It was five minutes to midnight, but clearly the dance floor was still packed with people. The music blasted through her ears, and as she closed her eyes to follow the beat, for the first time, she didn’t think about him. Her mind fought tediously to associate itself with the music that came banging at her eardrums. But she soon found herself yielding to another bottle of Heineken because of its sheer stubbornness. Now her body began to move with the heart-pounding bass and the haste rhythm of the song, and for all she knew a guy had placed his hands around her waist - and drowsily, her arms succumbed to wrap themselves around his sweaty but glimmering neck; their bodies were touching as they moved in a parallel, but slow motion with the music. Suddenly, the little, unconscious voice, who had forever lived under an introverted light, began to emerge - it searched, it hunted, it yelled rebelliously for that one sensation..the acme of all sensations.. the ecstasy. Minutes to midnight, her face finally lit up a candid smile - and in the last minute of ephemeral pleasure, she unearthed her place in heaven as the effects of alcohol began to hit her like a surging wave."

i just had the sudden whim to write this. :D
"minutes to midnight" was stolen from Linkin Park's album. hahaha.
and i site the photo from Flikr.com :D

Japanesified!

2009-01-06T13:45:00.007+08:00

ICHIBAN.
Oh yes. One of the many gifts from my dear bff Zennie. [i'm talking about the bandana]

*i decided not to rotate the photo 90degrees clockwise for convenient viewing because that would make my face look flat and stretched when my face is already flat like a biscuit in reality.

Maybe this is what i'll wear whenever i need brain power - zee almighty force from the Land of zee Rising Sun. :D

And then there's the little fan!
It's so cute la!

just what i needed for my every-night beauty salon! :D

Please be 180cm :D

2009-01-03T15:04:00.006+08:00

check this guy out.

Doesn't he give you the chills!
*I wish my boy would be able to sing like that.

*Zennie why can't you sing like him at least :[
(bahahaa. Jk-ing! i still love the way you sing now. :D)

You know Youtube has more than 10000 singers who have innate abilities to sing, but this guy does it without any hint of pretentiousness!

OH and he's TAIWANESE! Oh yes baby. But he grew up in Boston. So that means he's an ABC! [American-Born Chinese] I love ABCs. :]

Hmm..I wonder how tall he is. :O

zéro neuf.

2009-01-01T13:30:00.005+08:00

"Five minutes to midnight, I sit alone on my porch, anticipating the brilliant and vibrant fireworks that will soon reveal a new light – the light that will luminously open itself to a new path, and that welcomes and fosters new ambitions, new resolutions. But when the hour hand stroke midnight, and the undulant rings of the aged grandfather clock fill the hollow, dim living room with a deep resonance, I saw none of this. There were no colorful fireworks; there were no lunatic nor ebullient yells of “happy new year!”; there were no sensations of a new-found love, of a novice, or of a new-born child being sprung out from the small yet potent seeds of life. There were instead, but only, black tears, and a black sky. In the end, I found myself standing amidst invisible fireworks while my heart burned like a thousand fires."

*side note: Happy New Year to All. Let this year be filled with love, joy, and happiness.

I'm lunatic over you.

2008-12-30T23:39:00.005+08:00

omg i apologize for my being insane over Lee Hom! [i'm suppose to be studying for the SATs now but anyway who cares!] The alluring images of Lee Hom favors procrastination and demands a few minutes (or rather a few long minutes) of admiration!

why are u so hot!?!?!?!?.

*drool. I want you.

He's tall. He has no piercings. He's smart; as in, academically smart. He's a fucking talented musician- i swear he has an innate musical talent. But mostly, He has all i want in a man.

oh PLEASE be mine :[

*臻! 放心啦! 你還是我心中最完美的男人. ;]

I <3 YOU LEE HOM.

2008-12-30T01:21:00.005+08:00

OMFGG! OKOK I KNOW I JUST, FEW MINS AGO, POSTED MY BLOG FOR TODAY BUT BUT BUT. ok i stop typing in caps-lock.

I WAS DOWNLOADING MUSIC ON SOGOU.COM, AND CAME ACROSS THE "HOTLIST", UNDER OF WHICH WAS ONE OF LEE HOM'S NEW SONG "HEARTBEAT" (album released just 4 days ago) AND THEN OUT OF EXCITEMENT I WENT TO YOUTUBE TO CHECK IT OUT. AND AHHHHHHHHHHHH HE'S STILL SO HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO CHARMING @_@ AND OMG THE SONG IS SOOOOOOOOOO GOOOD! I LOVE ITTTTT !!! DON'T YOU TOO?!?!?!

BUT DON'T TAlK ME ABOUT THE [HOT](sigh) JAPANESE GIRL WHO PLAYS IN THIS MV WITH LEE HOM. :@

Cape. No 7

2008-12-30T00:32:00.007+08:00

AH!
Everyone MUST watch this movie: it's called Cape No. 7.
It's a Chinese movie that's stirring the pot in Taiwan now! :]

There's a mixture of languages in this movie - Japanese, Mandarin, and Hokkein. I think that's pretty cool! And if you understand Hokkein, you'll understand the humor! So be prepared to Roll-On-Foor-Laughing-My-Ass-Out 247! The movie might seem insipid and void of a storyline at first, (or even confusing) so you'll have the urge to switch it off (like i did, three times actually haha) but just keep watching! It's the ending; the ending will move you to tears.

AHH!
It's a touching love story, but it's not a typical one. So dw, you'll cut down on the "omg it's so cheeeeeeeeeesy" whines. Like i said, there's comic relief everywhere, so expect to be laughing your ass off. Just trust the movie. The beginning might seem like a bunch of hokum, so you'll constantly be stuck into figuring out who's related to who, or how something's related to another. Then again, you'd think the ending is predictable, but you'd be surprised!

OH and you gotta love the songs.
:)

BRAIN POWER PLEASE.

2008-12-28T12:43:00.005+08:00

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ba black sheep have u any wool.
T.T

Ah. I hate having to study for SATs during the winter break.
What bugger. Pfft. And i thought I was the most skilled in Math. But my Math always gets the lowest score out of the three sections. What shit is this. Why why whyyyyyyyyyyyy!

In the College Board SAT Study Guide, it's proven that people who do well in school won't do necessarily do well on the SATs.
HAH. Maybe that's why I don't do well. T.T Or am i just denying the fact that I'm actually quite dumb.

SATs YOU ARE MY NEMESIS.
AND YES I'D LIKE FOR YOU TO VANISH.

But God, please give me the power to score a 2200 + on January the 24th. Thank you. I owe you one. :]

There is no other day than Xmas.

2008-12-26T17:11:00.028+08:00

AH i have so much to say.
Where should i begin?!?
Okok. Basically, yesterday, yes yes Xmas day, was a celebration for Xmas and Shereen and Jan Nee's birthday! And to Liyana, Chee, Amani, Iris, May Zhee and Onnella, oh and my fellow Asian boys (that includes the Koreans + Japanese + Shamir + Johnathan: this day would've been a BLAST if you guys came as well :(

Some pics before we left my house:

So, Jan, Kurumi, Kirsti and I rode off in Mr. Yellow (that's the name given to taxi created by Ishida) to Sunway Pyramid~ We were supposed to go ice skating, but due to the massive line and myriad of people on the ice skating range, we decided to implement Plan B! And that was to go straight to Sunway Lagoon woohoooooo!

Ah. When i said earlier in this post that if all of the above mentioned people came, Sunway Lagoon would've been a trillion times better, i mean it! Especially for places like water parks and theme parks, the more the merrier :] Not that i'm saying the four of us didn't have fun..haha. We did. But omg. I must tell you the various
bad lucks we encountered.

1. The changing rooms at the water park = HORRIBLE. You have like, 10000 people entering and exit-ing this small, tiny room. And then you have to suffer walking on the wet, dirty urine/poo stained floor. Trust me, there was nowhere to breathe. But after a series of pushes, frowns, and "ew"s we were able to squeeze our way out of the filthy changing room.

2. Now we needed lockers. We got two. 5RM each (wtf so expensive). You know those lockers where after you toss the coin in, you HAVE to use the locker? Well. Kurumi, tossed the coin into a locker that was "OUT OF ORDER". She said she didn't see that. So then she went back to the locker counter and asked for a refund or a new locker. The Indian man said "No. Too bad. You must pay again." WTF T.T When she told me i blew. I went to the Indian man and started swearing. And then Kurumi joined me and she was AGRO!! She practically screamed at the Indian man. LOL. Anyway in the end we had to pay for another one wtf.

3. I wore my bikini with shorts that looked like jeans simply because it was blue in color and looked very much like jean-material. So when we lined up for the slides, the Malay lifeguard said "NO. YOU CANNOT. NO JEANS." T.T They weren't jeans. The shorts i wore was meant for swimming. Stupid. So then Kurumi, Jan Nee and Kristi had to go through ten minutes of my "omg noo i don't want to take my shorts off. Too fat" whines before i took them off. Sorry guys. hahaha.

Okay..so basically that sums up the water park. LOL. Nah, it wasn't all bad lucks. We had fun. We even tried to steal someone's tube :] Oh but the water, as a result of the many people who were at the water park, was yellow?! O.o

Now comes the night of unicorns and fairies:
Some pics before we went to The Curve for dinner.
They raided my closet! Ah. and I love Kristi's make-up box!

And yes. MY limo. The perfect reason to be cam-whores:

I think i'll shut-up for now and allow you to enjoy the highlight of the night- Cocktails at Laundry :]

Too much cam-whoring that the waiter gave us our bill, un-demanded, about half an hour later as if to tell us to get out ASAP :O

But we continued.

And how did the night end?

*In the limo back to my place.
Jan Nee: "I see unicorns!"

End.
Happy Birthday to Shereen and Jan Nee,
and Merry Christmas to All :]

For my dear May Zhee.

2008-12-25T12:06:00.004+08:00

haha. okay.
this is how the story goes:

Two days ago, i was waking up to the
bizarre construction noises (as usual every morning at
11am right outside my house), and then
my hand-phone door-belled (my sms ringtone is the sound of a door-bell haha).

Sender: May Zhee
"Kuan Yu, do you feel that without me, life will be extremely hard?
Do you feel that i have impacted your life in ways that even words cannot explain?"

My eyes forced open, and now i was reading
the message over again.

A few minutes after and as i was contemplating on the question,
my hand-phone rang:

May Zhee: KUAN YU! Do you feel that life without me..is like a part of you is missing?
KY: HAR. (still trying to make sense of all of this) what you talking bout wor!
May Zhee: AHh do you feel like like.okay take GZ out of the picture for now .ahahah. do you feel like i have impacted your life??
KY: EH..why asking me this la!
May Zhee: ahhh okokok. Just just..do you feel i'm important in your life or not!
KY: (annoyed at her insistence)OKOK. but but i've only known you for 6 months lor.. i mean i KNOW you well enough la...i guess..ya ya..you are important..
May Zhee: ahahhaha. ahh okok thing is, i have to choose a person to write a peer evaluation for me! and u were my first choice!
KY: (Feeling bad hahaha) AH i feel special la! okokok..i mean i know you well enough to be able to write one for u..just that since in school we don't talk much cause i'm always so busy right..i don't know if i can make this evaluation like...full.
May Zhee: AH i know i know i get what you mean..okok i'l think about it.
KY: ahhh but but i want you to know that like..if you want me to write one i can write one for you! and i want to! there's so much to say about u! and u are a unique person!
May Zhee: ahhh hahahha okay okay. thanks..i'll call you later.

A few hours later she sms-ed
and said "KY! You're doing it for me!"

So there you go. Now i shall reveal my words of May Zhee Lim!
Though i stayed up so late last night to do it..it was fun. She IS a special person:

There is only one girl throughout my entire high school career who I had ever judged incorrectly upon seeing her for the first time, and her name goes by May Zhee Lim. With her piercing, girly, high-pitched voice and oh-my-god shrieks, and not to mention her incessant whines and yammers about grades and not joining enough activities in school, she was immediately (one week upon her arrival at MKIS) dubbed as the “noise-maker”. And this was how I felt towards her as well: she was a narcissist at heart, for she demanded attention from the crowd by using her pretentious nature to boast and brag about two of her published books. Perhaps it was my own competitive and kiasuism (hokkein for ‘scared of losing’) nature that allowed me to openly spit out the words “complacent” and “phony” when asked to describe her.

But that was all six months ago. As the months pass May Zhee has unconsciously entered my life in a way that has made me almost dependant on her. Sure, her self-absorbed characteristic and narcissism might have influenced me and others into thinking she was a girl merely concerned about her self-imposed image on her friends and superiors, but this, as I have come to learn and realize, is what makes May Zhee stand in stark contrast to those around her. Unlike some who are narcissists as a result of their manipulative desires to impress superiors, May Zhee is not only a “genuine” narcissist, but she is also a proud one. And perhaps what makes this attribute even more ironic is that she has all the reason to be a narcissist: her accomplishments outside of school, (having published two books sold worldwide and internationally), and her freelance business as a public relations person explicitly illustrate her zeal and fervor to pursue what she has always wanted in life (that is to publish her books) while at the same time trying to cope with the ups and downs of the strenuous IB program at school. No, May Zhee is neither a phony nor a complacent or pretentious bragger. She is “the bomb”, and this was my nickname to her.

Then again, May Zhee is a girl of contradictions. She demands attention, but is humble and modest at the same time. Her concern for her friends rank above excellence, for it is through knowing her that I, for the first time, feel truly consoled and solaced when I was to seek her for help. I know that it is with the way she uses her words, and the way she draws up the most quirky remarks and whimsical comments that characterizes her sense of humour and that creates a lingering presence of sanguinity and joy. Just today, after mailing her Secondary School Report, she called me, and the first thing she shouted into the phone was, “oh-my-god Kuan Yu! I’m having a nervous breakdown! What if I didn’t seal the letter properly! What if it gets eaten by sharks! Oh-my-god! And it’s air mail! That’s even more prone to being eaten by sharks!” Indeed, her humour often plagues me with never-ending laughter and stomach pains. On the last day of exams, a few minutes after her IB HL Biology Exam she rushed to me with a wry and doomed expression on her face, and with both hands she held my shoulders with a force so strong I thought I was about to be strangled, and then she uttered in one long, exhausted breath, “Oh-my-god! I think I failed my exam! What am I going to do Kuan Yu! Oh-my-god! Oh-my-god...” Yeah, have I not mentioned she’s an absolute worrier? And then she begins to feel horrible to those she complained to after discovering that she had received a 79/80, a near perfect score for her exam.

What May Zhee possesses is a valuable yet daunting trait that everyone is afraid of showing, and that is self-confidence. Her heightened level of confidence is manifested through the various successes, inside and outside of school that she deserves. She’s not afraid of showing the world her true persona. And even when she unintentionally crushed her impression on others with her shrill voice and her ostentatious attitude, she by no means had second thoughts or brooded about changing her character to meet the demands of a new environment. And if this is not enough, the whimsical and hilarious nature of her blog captivated me so much that I, who stopped blogging a long time ago due to personal reasons, excitingly decided to give my blog another chance to revive.

Join me in an eve of loneliness.

2008-12-24T22:15:00.001+08:00

I'm a loner on Christmas eve!
So if you're sitting in front of your computer,
staring idly at Facebook's never-ending status updates -
"Merry Xmas!" or "Xmas!", and feeling
envious of the Christmas spirit and joviality,
I have come to join you!

Now open a bottle of champagne,
share some intimacy, laughter and joy,
and join me in an eve of invisible snowflakes
and an irresistible Santa Claus.

snow

2008-12-22T16:23:00.001+08:00

i can only wish for snow.
i can only wish to lie
on a balcony and watch as
the snow blankets the earth.
i can only wish to hear the
sleigh bells ring as chariots
gallop across streets.

But even if i could do
all of the above,
i could only imagine to celebrate
Christmas with the ones i love.

It doesn't feel like a holiday.

2008-12-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

omg why is facebook not working?!
I mean it is working but it's moving so slowly.
And then it only loads halfway and so the bottom half of
the page is blank.

ok so take a look at my To-Do List:
1. CAS (I've done nothing. not even the proposal forms or the blue forms, or are they yellow forms?! And not to mention logging/blogging.)
2. SAT (i'm taking the SAT 1 again in January. what a bugger)
3. French hw (!?!!?,. ah typical Fourmond. Only he gives hw for us to fuss on.)
4. READ. oh but this is the only thing out of this list that i don't mind doing. (World lit books. but omg some are just...insipid T.T)

oh yeah
i got a 45/80 for my Physics HL exam.
The pain!